To the nerds

Who is a nerd? Could be a taunt, could be a deep, hidden question. Why we want to know who is a nerd? Is he a nerd? Is she a nerd? Same thing with gay; we just want to classify the person's identity. It's hardwired to our brains, it's what the brain is there to do (according to some studies that suggest our social behavior contributed to the growth of the brain). But why nerd? Why gay? Buchanan had a gay interest but they didn't care. They probably didn't think that gay affected their sexuality. They just kept it non-announced. They accepted the idea of the 'gay' and not made it a thing. They accepted as those thing were 'wrong' but people do anyway, like drinking or smoking. But back to the main point. Nerd seemed to grow a defense mechanism to deter newcomers, stemming from the fact that it might destroy the Nerd community. That it might taint or disrupt the purity that is the Nerd kingdom. In fact, this look like it stems from the ideas that they embrace. The underdog under constant auspicion of attacks, but beating the fear they embrace and taking a new world order for the better. But as the 'nerd' things have gone mainstream, they fear that they lost the disadvantage of being the minority. Nerd had become America. Or anyone else, in fact. I was going to say that Nerd is a modernist culture -- wants order, wants to progress -- but the postmodern idea made that pure thing tainted and mixed into to nothingness. Hipster might be a response to that. But no. This is something more fundamental. People always had the idea that they are the minority and that everyone else is there to attack us. It's something that's in us biologically; oxytocin gives sense of familiarity to those that are close to us but to the others, not so much. In fact, it's the opposite. This might have stemmed from the fact that in the early days people were isolated and constantly filled with dangers and other people, other than people close to you, were threats. They steal things. It's basically the breaking point. Our ideals and our desires are not working concurrently. What we desire is what it fuels the world, but our ideal contradict and even condemn our desires. Idea of repression seems harrowing to us, but sense of mindless violence is also frightening. What do we do? We, Nerds, can fix this. We're the rational ones, right? We can overcome our desire and... what make us Human? Is it our faults? Is it our irrational love of something on a paper. That never should affect our ways our life? We're at the crossroads. There's multiple ways. We have learned enough. But how do we use them? Will we ever move on? Thanks for reading.